Once again, I’m a bad blogger not posting in months!
I have tried my best not to complain (too) much, I have had 2 pretty easy pregnancies with no major problems so I am very thankful for that. But to be completely honest, after 2 pregnancies in 2 years I am done, I feel like I’ve been pregnant forever. Yes it is a miracle, it’s wonderful, amazing, and every other word you can use to describe pregnancy but I do feel like I am ready to be done and I am very much looking forward to not being pregnant anymore, ever. I guess this probably sounds pretty harsh, especially since there are women out there who would love nothing more than to be able to have a baby. I do recognize this and understand how selfish I sound for saying it, but I really truly am grateful for my babies!
At my last checkup with the doctor last week, the midwife was chatting with me about how I am adjusting to life here, if I get homesick, all the normal questions when someone finds out I’m a recent transplant. My reply was one I had never said before, but honestly I think it’s probably the best way I can answer the question right now! I told her let me not be pregnant for about a year and then I will let you know how I’m feeling. I still think I am doing well, adjusting to life over here but when I think about it, all the wobbles and struggles with being so homesick and feeling so isolated were/are not helped by pregnancy hormones! I really do love it here, and feel you should be happy with your life wherever it takes you but I have really struggled some days. I’m hoping now with my 2 little ones I can see how much I really enjoy life here without the influence of crazy hormones!
So tomorrow I will be putting an end to my pregnancy era! We have waited patiently for baby girl to make her appearance. I really wanted to give labor an honest try after having Elliot by C-section the first time around, but I am past 41 weeks now and my options for induction are limited because of the previous CS, so I will be having her by C-section tomorrow! I’m sure I will update as soon as I can once we are home!