It feels like an Era!

Once again, I’m a bad blogger not posting in months!

I have tried my best not to complain (too) much, I have had 2 pretty easy pregnancies with no major problems so I am very thankful for that.  But to be completely honest, after 2 pregnancies in 2 years I am done, I feel like I’ve been pregnant forever. Yes it is a miracle, it’s wonderful, amazing, and every other word you can use to describe pregnancy but I do feel like I am ready to be done and I am very much looking forward to not being pregnant anymore, ever.  I guess this probably sounds pretty  harsh, especially since there are women out there who would love nothing more than to be able to have a baby.  I do recognize this and understand how selfish I sound for saying it, but I really truly am grateful for my babies!

At my last checkup with the doctor last week, the midwife was chatting with me about how I am adjusting to life here, if I get homesick, all the normal questions when someone finds out I’m a recent transplant.  My reply was one I had never said before, but honestly I think it’s probably the best way I can answer the question right now!  I told her let me not be pregnant for about a year and then I will let you know how I’m feeling. I still think I am doing well, adjusting to life over here but when I think about it, all the wobbles and struggles with being so homesick and feeling so isolated were/are not helped by pregnancy hormones!  I really do love it here, and feel you should be happy with your life wherever it takes you but I have really struggled some days.  I’m hoping now with my 2 little ones I can see how much I really enjoy life here without the influence of crazy hormones!

So tomorrow I will be putting an end to my pregnancy era!  We have waited patiently for baby girl to make her appearance.  I really wanted to give labor an honest try after having Elliot by C-section the first time around, but I am past 41 weeks now and my options for induction are limited because of the previous CS, so I will be having her by C-section tomorrow!  I’m sure I will update as soon as I can once we are home!

Pink!

How is it that I am a girl, yet I feel lost on where to start when it comes to RAISING a girl?!?  Yep, that’s right – bump is pink, we will be having a little girl in December!  I am excited about it, I think it will be nice to have one of each but at the same time I’m not much of a girly girl so let’s hope shes more into Legos, and Mechano sets than Barbies and Disney Princesses.

It’s not best for everyone!

I am soooooo tired of the “Breast is Best” campaign.  Not that I don’t agree with breastfeeding… I do believe in a perfect world it is best for Mother and Baby, but this is not a perfect world.  Women should not be pressured into breastfeeding or made to feel a horrible failure when they choose not to BF or can’t for whatever reason.  Formula is not poison.  I have a formula fed baby who is thriving.  I do not feel that I have less of a bond with him because he is formula fed.  But I did struggle horribly with the decision to stop trying to breastfeed him.  I’m sure now it was mostly the hormones.  Normal Amy would have been much more rational about it all and saw the logic in the reasons to stop.  Hormonal Amy only felt the failure and misery, I had been told all through pregnancy that “Breast was Best” taught how to BF in classes like it was so simple so it’s no wonder I felt like a horrible failure.  The truth is, my reasons to stop were good ones and I gave it my best effort.  I can now see that.  I wish that I had not lost weeks of my life and precious time with my newborn feeling depressed and worthless about it.  If there is a next time around, we will try again but I will NOT tear myself up if we cannot continue.

I guess the source of this rant is a recent program on TV over here which explored the topic – I did not watch it (forgot really) but the baby forums lit up with debate over the topic and it has always bothered me a little.  I REALLY DO agree with the BF education, there are a surprising number of women who never even for one second considered it until they were told more about it, and I do think everyone should try but I really hate the stigma that seems to be placed by some women and health care workers alike on women who either chose not to or could not BF.  It is a personal choice and one that can only be made by Mom to do what is best for her baby and herself.  There is nothing wrong with formula, babies thrive on it every day!

Let’s all just chill out and be happy that formula fed babies are being fed, clothed and loved in the first place and focus our energy helping the babies that are not being fed, clothed and loved… mmmmmKAY?

They still exist!

The Milk Man.  Someone I had thought went the way of the history books until I moved here and saw the little white van holding up traffic one day.  I Knew they still had milk deliveries here but I never looked into it until recently.  I saw the “Milk and More” commercial and went to check out their website and liked what I saw!  They deliver lots of every day stuff – but it seemed  a little redundant as I normally order my weekly shop from Tesco online anyway and have it delivered – why not just get milk there too?  Well… This is the coolest thing!  My Milk Jug!

It is a reusable plastic jug that I keep in the fridge and buy refill bags that I just drop in and snap the corner of the bag under the lid then the cap pierces it open.  75% less packaging makes me feel warm and fuzzy – and the bags are still recyclable!  And the cost is not much different from I was paying, and its good milk!  Win!

Teething

A random, new parent rant:

Teething is such a funny subject to me.  If you think about it, it’s sort-of a random, non-specific group of symptoms that are shared with other causes and every baby experiences these symptoms differently and at different times.

Why do I ponder this?  Well… when Baby exhibits symptoms that someone thinks could be related to teething, they ask “Oh, is Baby teething?” or “Are his teeth bothering him?”  or something similar.

Well first of all, how the h e double hockey sticks are you supposed to really know with any certainty that it is a “teething” thing that is bothering baby and as a new parent that has never gone through a baby teething – I can’t really recognize things like that anyway until we have “been there, done that!”

Basically there is a small group of things we can say with certainty.  Elliot is drooling like someone turned the tap on, and shoving everything he can get his hands on into his mouth and rubbing said items on his gums when he is not sticking his tongue out andrubbing it on his gums, also his gums feel more bumpy than they did the week before.  I guess these together mean he is teething, so I answer “yes” to the “Is baby teething?” Questions.

Odd rant, I know – like I said, It’s just a funny topic to me.

Snowflakes and Angels

We all want to leave something behind when we leave this world; a legacy – memories and a lasting influence on our surviving family and friends.  For some it is important to leave a physical legacy – objects or contributions to be remembered by.

While I think about my Grandma Ginny often, I especially remember her around Christmas time.  Anyone who knows my Mom’s side of the family knows Grandma’s deep wealth of talent for crochet.  We all have quite a collection of blankets and booties, doilies and decorations.  Graduations, births and weddings were all celebrated with a customized afghan.  Christmas time though, is when our homes are truly filled with her memory. Christmas trees proudly decorated with handmade ornaments.  Delicate snowflakes, graceful angels, shiny baubles with cozy crochet covers.  I decorated my humble little Christmas tree yesterday and found myself as I am now while writing this – brought to tears over her memory.  Not necessarily tears of sadness or loss but the tears associated with a strong memory of someone loved very deeply.  She (for me) was one of those people who you do not realize the impact they have had on your life until they are gone.  As I sit here gazing at my beautiful baby Boy, I am so grateful that I have something so simple as some handmade ornaments to fill my heart with love and memories and remind me what Christmas is truly about.

30 weeks!

Still feeling great!  Only 10-ish weeks until we get to hold our little guy, cannot wait!

Here’s what my little squash is up to for week 30 🙂

Week Thirty: Baby puts on pounds

  
You are 30 weeks pregnant. (fetal age 28 weeks)

  • Baby measurements are 16 inches and weighs about 3 pounds.
  • Length is 40cm and your baby’s weight is 1.4 kilograms.
  • The head is almost 3.5 inches (8cm) in diameter.
  • The feet are nearly 2.5 inches (6cm) long.
  • The wrinkled skin is becoming smoother now.
  • In boys, the testicles have moved down to the groin.
  • The baby controls its own body temperature.

For several months, the umbilical cord has been the baby’s lifeline to the mother. Nourishment is transferred from the mothers blood, through the placenta, and into the umbilical cord to the fetus. Their bone marrow is now responsible for red cell production. These red blood cells will continue to service your child’s body by transporting oxygen and removing the wastes. Your baby begins storing iron, calcium and phosphorus.

The fetus now weighs about 3 pounds (1.4kg). He or she will gain about half a pound a week until week 38. Baby is getting fatter and beginning to control its own body temperature. Baby continues to put on fat stores and the major weight gains will occur in the coming weeks. Eyebrows and eyelashes are fully developed, and hair on the head is getting thicker. Head and body are now proportioned like a newborn.

Hands are now fully formed and fingernails are growing. Can be seen on ultrasound scans grasping their other hand or feet, this is helping with nerve development. Eyelids are opening and closing, and will often make rapid eye movements – a sign they could be dreaming.

You may be starting to experience some swelling of your ankles and legs. If you have not experienced any swelling yet, it is highly probable that you will, as approximately 40 to 75 percent of women experience mild swelling related to pregnancy.

Your uterus is now about 4 inches (10cm) above your bellybutton. It may feel like you are running out of room as your uterus grows up under your ribs. However, your fetus, placenta and uterus will continue to get larger, you still have 10 weeks to go. The average weight gain during pregnancy is 25 to 35 pounds (11.5 to 16kg). About half of this weight is concentrated in the growth of the uterus, the placenta, the baby and in the volume of amniotic fluid. At this point, you should be gaining about a pound (500 grams) a week.